There are so many other fun stories from our trip to Dallas, but I will have to spread them out over a few posts. In the meantime, I hope everyone has a Happy and safe New Year's!!
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Last night we made a gingerbread house. Actually, Daddy made the gingerbread house while I took pictures and Abby sampled all of the candy decorations. Unfortunately, Abby had to go to bed before the house got decorated, but it was the first thing she spotted this morning when she woke up. It was a lot of fun! I just realized she is wearing the same outfit that she wore to the pirate party last weekend!
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Yesterday was a bit of a strange day, with the reminder of that pregnancy that went oh so wrong looming in my head all day. But it was hard to be sad about it all day, when I have so much right in front of me to be SO thankful for. Abby and I did some shopping at Michaels, and a woman stopped to tell me how beautiful Abby is, and how much she envied me! (yesterday of all days!) Apparently she has 12 grandsons and no granddaughters!! I am very lucky to have my beautiful little ray of sunshine who sings to me and showers me with hugs and kisses every day. And I am 28 1/2 weeks pregnant with a VERY active little boy who also reminds me how lucky I am. Poor kid still doesn't have a name yet, but we are so excited to meet him!!
Right after Christmas it will be time to focus on this little guy. Picking out a name, and bedding, and getting his room ready for his arrival! There is a lot to do and very little time to do it!
Saturday, December 6, 2008
We also had Christmas/Abby's 18-month pictures taken a couple weeks ago. Those didn't go nearly as smoothly. She didn't really want to sit still or pose, and every time the photographer raised her camera up, Abby would wail. But we survived and even got a few good shots. So, here are a few of the best from that adventure:
Thursday, December 4, 2008
I had a Dr. appt. on Tuesday to check on my little man, and all is well. His heart rate was 144 bpm, and according to the sonogram, he weighs 2 lbs. 12 oz!!!! He is head down and really low, and my cervix is very soft, but luckily I'm not dilated yet. And I passed my glucose test (yay!), but I am anemic, so I get to add an iron pill to my daily total of 4 pills a day (yuck)! But it will all be worth it in a couple months when we are holding our sweet baby boy. Here are a few pictures from the sonogram:
This is a picture of his face, with his mouth open.
This is a picture designed to answer any questions about our son's gender...
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
- for the huge smile on Greg's face when he tickles Abby and she roars with laughter
- for the smart and funny cow-loving 18 month old who greeted me with a smile and "Hi ommy!" this morning
- for the amazing little kicks I feel throughout the day, reminding me how far I've come from a time when I thought I might never get to be a mommy
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Abby had her 18 month check up today. She weighs 23 lbs., 13 oz. and she is 32 1/2 in. long (tall?). She is 50% for weight and 75% for height! She is getting 3 new teeth, which brings our total up to 10! Her favorite thing right now is reading books, especially about animals. And her absolute favorite animal right now is the cow. Not sure exactly why, but the girl LOVES cows. And I love my little cow-lover!!
This time one year ago
Look at her now!!!
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I will post more pictures as we get the rooms set up.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
I began this blog in the middle of our journey---we have already been blessed with an AMAZING little lady with the help of fertility treatment. We were going through treatment to add to our family, when my ectopic pregnancy happened. That is where this blog picks up. Now that I am pregnant, this blog will be taking on a different tone, and switching gears to being more pregnancy and motherhood related. There will still be plenty of talk of infertility, as it will follow me forever, and as we continue to grow our family. But in the future, I may have to move it over to being password protected at some point so that I can share more of my life and protect my family at the same time.
Monday, June 23, 2008
But then something shocking happened. On Thursday, I got a faint BFP. And I would ordinarily be over the moon excited, except that I've been down this road before, and I don't like how the story ends. So I didn't even mention it to Greg. Instead I waited to see what would happen on Friday. Well all 5 BFPs on Friday were just as faint as those the day before. They didn't appear to be getting any darker. So I was positive at this point that the news was going to be bad. But I called and scheduled a blood test for Sat. anyway. I decided that I would tell him on Saturday afternoon if the results were higher than 50, and if not, I would wait until after my repeat beta on Monday. I guess I was afraid to tell him for fear of getting excited myself. When the Dr. called on Sat. afternoon I thought it had to be bad news. I was expecting a call from the nurse, and in my experience, it isn't good news when the Dr. personally calls himself. But then he gave me the greatest news possible: 189. It was better than I could have imagined, but I am still trying hard not to get too excited. No doubt I will certainly breathe easier this afternoon if my numbers have doubled, but I don't think I will truly be convinced that I am pregnant until I see a baby in my uterus, with a heartbeat.
So, there it is. That's my big news. Stay tuned for the results, good, bad, or ugly.
Thursday, June 12, 2008
I am already contemplating in my head when I could possibly test and get a bfp. 9dpiui? 10dpiui? But right now, I have decided that I am pregnant until proven otherwise. This seems to shut up my inner voice momentarily, and it convinces me to wait as long as possible to test for fear of "proving otherwise." So for now I am enjoying my pregnancy ---- all 2 weeks, 5 days of it.
Monday, June 9, 2008
So, that's where I'm at right now. Do you think it is too early to test??
I am doing everything in my power not to surf the baby gear or pregnancy websites. But I have already begun all of my other silly rituals--drinking pineapple juice, looking up the would-be due date.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
So why can't I get excited about this cycle? I have felt hope begin to creep in a few times the past few days, and I always manage to squash it with negative thoughts. I guess it is because the goal used to be to get that BFP. That was until that first ectopic. So then the new plan was to get a BFP and doubling HCGs. That was until this last ectopic. So I guess now I just hope for a BFP with doubling HCGs and a beautiful perfect heartbeat in my uterus if that isn't too much to ask. I think I'm just pissed off that I have been completely robbed of the innocence that so many others get to enjoy. It was one thing to start fertility treatments and be robbed of that "oh my gosh, what a surprise" moment. But to be robbed of the joy of seeing those two lines come up on the hpt, or even the happiness of the call from the Dr. office. Well that just sucks. So I guess I need to just sit on that for a couple days and whine and lick my wounds. But fear not, hope always has a way of creeping in during the 2ww.
Friday, May 30, 2008
I had been really hesitant to move on to ivf at this juncture because I always felt like it was the ace in our back pocket. And as long as we still had it tucked away in our pocket while we were trying IUIs, then we were doing okay. I haven't been ready to pull it out of my back pocket yet because then what would we have left if that didn't work? And so, for now at least, it will remain in our pocket while we try two more IUIs.
I had my second follistim injection tonight. And it amazes me how much they don't hurt. I don't know if it is because I have gotten so used to them, or because lately the emotional pain is so much worse than the physical pain, so much so that a tiny needle prick doesn't even register with my brain. Either way, I am grateful to not dread the shots like I did those first couple months. I am scheduled to go in Monday for a follicle check and bloodwork. Just about time to have a nice chat with my ovaries about not being overachievers, but still making sure to produce a couple nice big follicles, prefarably on the right side, since the left is, well, BROKEN and all. Do you talk to your body before an appointment? What do you say? Does it ever work?